Taking A Break
But that voice! She has one of the loudest, most insistent meows I've ever heard. I told Hannah we should name her Lena after the character in Singing in the Rain (click on the link and you'll see one of my first screen appearances as Phoebe Dinsmore)
She's beautiful, but that voice could knock you flat!
I do believe that when I'm energized again, I'll know it, but until then there's that irrational, scary feeling that I'll never not feel tired again.
Phone Strategies
I do use a set "patter" when I'm talking to a new person on the phone, I explain that I have a hard time understanding what I'm hearing, and that I'd love to do as much as possible via email.Unfortunately many times folks interpret that as me saying, "I don't want to talk on the phone with you." which can lead to unfortunate misunderstandings.
I don't get that reaction all the time, but I get it often enough that I realize some folks just don't get how difficult it is for me to process non-visual audial cues.
I didn't used to be this way, and right now I'm better than I was 4 years ago. Here's a photo of me in happier phone times...
It started after I'd had my hysterectomy in 2002, which makes me wonder if there's some hormonal or physical reason for this difficulty. I just don't know - all I know is that it definitely is real.
Family Walk
So after my phone time yesterday I took the family, as promised, to the dog run for a walk. Gerry was in pain but moving better than I was, my breathing has been pretty sucky since working on Jan's house (and before that, too)
Disclaimer: I did wear a mask with a filter while I was in Jan's house, and I limited my time inside to short periods. But even with precautions it was hard to avoid the air there. I can't help but feel that the toxicity in the house had a negative effect on Jan's cancer.
So off we went to one of the jewels of the Twin Cities. When my breathing is bad I like to push myself a little bit because I think it keeps my lungs strong and active. I fear becoming sedentary and not getting my lungs the fresh air they need. Annoyingly, with the biking and walking I do one would think I'd be getting thinner...
Yesterday was one of the most beautiful Autumn days ever! Warm enough for shorts, cool enough for comfort, and sunny. Gerry thinks Max and I are NUTS for wearing shorts when it's chilly outside, but our legs and feet are the last parts of our bodies to get cold.
Like me, I've noticed that Max sleeps bundled up with his legs sticking out because they get too warm. Odd how these little physical oddities are passed down...
It starts with a downward sloping path, with some stairs at one point, toward the banks of the Mississippi River. Yesterday the river shore was lousy with happy people and happier doggies, running and splashing and fetching all kinds of tossed items. We walked until Gerry or I cried, "Uncle!" We'd rest, then walk a bit more. There are several well-walked paths, easy going, and perfect for such a lovely day.
I had a rough time up the hill coming back, darned breathing, but overall it was a phenomenally wonderful romp. We regretted that we hadn't brought a picnic lunch, so we stopped for fried chicken on the way home and had a little celebratory dinner then a take-no-prisoners Monopoly game. The game is still set up, we didn't finish it, we're hoping to this evening...
Canvassing
On Saturday I went canvassing for BO. This election is so important, I can't live with myself if I didn't make an effort to BE the change I'd like to see in the world. I can't say it was my favorite thing in the world to do, but folks reactions were very positive, and overall it was a very good experience. But tiring!
Hannah went with me (civics lesson) and held the bag with the handouts, which was such a help!
I'm concerned about vote manipulation (especially in places like Colorado where 20% of the voters have been purged from the rolls!) so I urge everyone to double check your voter registration AND if it's possible, vote early IN PERSON!
I've already voted (I had planned to be in Boston on 11/4) and I feel so happy and proud that I know my vote has already been counted - or, will be, on 11/4.
If you live in Ramsey County, you can VERY easily vote at 90 W. Plato in Saint Paul before election day. Check online to find your local county election board, and see if early voting is allowed in your area. The lines will be LONG this year, the more folks who can vote early IN PERSON before 11/4, the easier it will be for everyone who has to vote on that day.

Feed me, baby!










11 Comments:
Annie - Many medications, some quite common such as aspirin,can have an impact on hearing. Now, obviously you don't need one more thing on your plate but you may want to find time to read all that fine print on anything you're taking. And get a baseline test to keep track. (My hearing loss got worse from chemo but remission was worth it.) Roberta
Annie:
Just thought I'd let you know that your emotional posts about the state of Jan's house and your plea to all of us to take better care of our successors, along with similar sentiments here: http://fibermania.blogspot.com/ (see Oct. 3 and 17 posts), have energized me in a wonderful way. I have truly had an epiphany and am dealing with 'stuff' at my house. In just a few days I have opeened up amazing amounts of space and, more importantly, have shifted a burden from my shoulders.
It's small comfort but just wanted you to know that your trials and your willingness to write about them have made a difference.
Chris
Annie
Yesterday sounds like a perfect day to begin reducing the stress and the grief that are so close to you now. Be very good and kind to yourself ... spend lots of quality time with the family ... and get to know the new kitty ... [our adopted dog seems to be more annoying in his bark when he thinks he is being ignored ... could that be the kitten's problem ? ] Some of your stress comes from the female gene that makes us all think we are superwoman and can do everything for everyone all the time ... and when we miss a minute of action we feel guilty !
Let it all go ... breathe, hug your family, bake pies, knit some sweaters, let the machine answer the phone, hug the animals also.
I always sleep with at least one foot and leg out of the covers too. I have found that as long as my feet are cool the rest of me stays comfortable. Take care of yourself and enjoy the beautiful autumn weather.
I have issues with talking on the phone too--its not always that I cannot hear, I just do not absorb or understand. I think I have always been like this but it might be getting more pronounced.
I self-diagnosed myself with Auditory Processing Disorder! I said YES to so many things on the online checklist it made sense. No wonder I dreaded lecture classes and excelled in online ones.
At least I know now that I am not alone in this! Seems like the whole world is talking on the phone except me. I just don't get it.
We vote by mail in Oregon. Ballots came on Saturday; my 90-year old mother and I voted, and the ballots went out in the mail today. And without any pressure from me, Ma voted just right: so there's two for Obama. :-)
Toni
I've never seen his initials like that. B.O. That's unfortunate. You may really really like this website if you've got a strong stomach for cuss words. It's very cheeky-funny.
http://www.margaretandhelen.wordpress.com/
Glad to hear that you're taking good care of yourself; sounds like a lovely day yesterday. Loved the movie clip; that's one of my favorite movies!
Hi Annie - I would like to second the suggestion of learning about auditory processing disorder. You might find a full auditory processing assessment by an audiologist will give you some useful information about what is going on. "When the brain can't hear" by Teri Bellis is a good book on the topic and has info good compensation strategies. Thanks for your blog. That seems inadequate but it is heartfelt. Take care.
Yeah Annie! Sounds like you are doing exactly what you need to do to rest and detox your body.
With time, you will be able to let go of the what-if's. I have a family member who lives in a similar state to Jan--lots of pets in too small a space. When she lived near me, I tried to help clean, she just got angry with me for messing with her house.
Continue to take care.
Hi Annie,
Being a fellow beer drinker, I just had to let you know that the dog park at Minnehaha Falls is where we (Roosevelt High) used to have our keg parties many, many, many years ago. I figured you'd get a chuckle out of that.
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