Vite!
We spent a lot of time together over the next two days (she took a train back up to Holland on Sunday morning) and everyone really enjoyed watching her knit. I wasn't even going to TRY to knit up to her speed! I know when discretion is necessary, and I'd rather look discrete than slow-as-a-snail!
Mostly I just enjoyed walking around with her - she bought a wonderful hat for her husband - and having a nice coffee while we both knitted. It was a nice break to spend time with a sister knitter who had no affiliation with the tour.
I love everyone on the tour, but I was able to feel a little less "on" than I had the previous few days. It was also nice for me watch how someone else knit just for pure pleasure for a change!
At the market I bought a sweater for 5 euros, and I could tell that Miriam was vaguely scandalized that I don't knit all my own stuff. I wish I had time! My project is going slower than I'd anticipated (no big surprise there) and I'm KICKING myself for not thinking to have Miriam knit it for me. Merde!
She received a call from her husband while she was here that the BBC wants to speak with her about a show on Guiness World Records (she holds the record for speed knitting.) Knitting royalty! And she gave me the sweetest Dutch Hat & Kerchief for Hannah and Max. They'll look even MORE Dutch, now!
And the extra bonus? She's coming to St. Paul in February for the Knit Out at the Mall of America - whoopee!!
MORE RUNNING
And finally - on Friday - my luggage arrived. Yay!
And it was great to have books for everyone and all of the other stuff in my bag - FABulous!
We've been having a wonderful time, the folks in the tour are SO lovely and we've been eating and walking and knitting our way across this area.
Lisa found this amazing chapeau, we were all quite jealous, but she was so beautiful we couldn't stay angry...
Our dinner was in a former Bath (bain) and it was SO beautiful! We ate in a courtyard covered with umbrellas - the food was exquisite (best dessert so far - Symphonie of Creme BrulŽe!) and laughed and laughed.
At one point I began speaking with one of the women in the group who has become very dear to me, and the subject turned to our husbands. It's probably the excess of wine AND the time away from Gerry, but I had to go to the bathroom for a moment to collect myself. WHERE is my PT Crusier when I need it?
That's something I miss greatly - driving (oh, yeah, and Gerry...)
I miss the feeling of being in control for a bit, and being alone in my OWN space.
Between the long drive and the tram ride, we got home after midnight. Unfortunately, arriving back so late on so many evenings has played havoc with our ability to be awake and coherent for classes - myself included! Despite that, though, it seemed that the group from week #1 has enjoyed the classes - I know I have!
Saturday was market day in PŽzenas, where we went for some MORE shopping (I bought baby powder and French toiletries) and then a fine lunch. And I ate olives.
Back here for some swimming and some private knitting tutoring before an early bedtime.
SARAH CREWE
Today I moved into a different room - one with a dresser, larger bed and window, a private toilette and shower, a small desk and places to sit - I'm in heaven! Most important, I'm one floor above the teaching area, so I won't have to go halfway around the building and up 3 steep flights of stairs (the final flight VERY twisty and a little scary) just to grab that ball of yarn or book I left in my room. Yay!
It was romantic to be in a "garret" (mais, a garret in Southern France!) but I do forward to a room with a bit more comfort and fewer stairs!
So now I'm in a new room - with the students this time (I can hear the next group arriving!) - and I'm really looking forward to it! I'd take a photo of the lovely room, but alas - my camera battery charger has stopped working, so no more photos unless I find an alternative. (Perhaps someone in this group uses the same kind of charger...?)
ALONE
Saturday the tour guests left, most of them at 6:30 this morning. The two remaining knitters (Hi Lisa & Claire!), Dava and I walked up the hill to a sort of roadside cafe and had a lovely lunch, then back down to knit a little before they went off to Montpellier.Kris & Philip (tour folks) and their son Dava drove the guest to the airport, and will continue on to the seaside for the afternoon/evening. They invited me, but I told them I'd rather just stay here and get some work done, write, knit, and have some time to myself.
I really love the time to myself. And in some ways I am overcome with the feeling that this is sort of training wheels for a period when I will be more alone. Jeeze, is it me, or is it the wine that's making me so darned maudlin?
The hotel hosts were getting a little sick of me sitting around at the dining room table (where I could get internet access without climbing back up to my room) but now I have my own space. And it is quite lovely here.
GERRY
I miss him terribly! Just about everything I do I think, "How much more fun this would be if Gerry were here!"
He makes me laugh more than anyone else in the world - and I really need that when I'm spending so much time making other people laugh!
I don't think he's in a laughing mood right now. He's sick as a dog, he required a transfusion, and this weekend his platelet count was low. Right now he's being kept in the hospital at the Mayo as an inpatient.
His sister and mom both have the number of the Inn here and will call me if he wants or needs to speak with me, but making a call out is so hard - and I hate to call and bother him at a time when he may finally have fallen asleep or may be resting. I want to hear his voice, but I don't think disturbing his hard-won rest would be for the best.









23 Comments:
Dear Annie, you must be in such a hard space right now. Doing what you need to do, love to do and having to be "On" when your heart is somewhere else. Every single time you talk about crying in the car, I just want to reach out and hug you.
When my husband left me I spent 6 months crying in the car. It was the only time I was alone. At work I had to be "on" and at home I had our son so I had to be "on" there too. My son is now 13 and has mental health issues. I still cry in the car. Recently, my old Neon was stolen. The rental car was a --you guessed it--PT Cruiser. I had two bad days when I drove around in the PT Cruiser Weeping. You and your family are dealing with so much and you sound like you are handling everything so well. Sorry this is so long winded but my thoughts are with you.
I don't know if you've thought about it,but your blog entries would make a wonderful book.
I don't comment very often,but I read all of your entries and your strength is amazing. Here'a a bit of inspiration for you and Gerry. Mel Sottlemyre http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mel_Stottlemyre,former pitching coach for the Yankees was diagnosed with MM in 1999 and is still going strong. Here's hoping for a similar outcome for your Gerry.
Debra
Hi, Annie --
I'm simultaneously so glad that you're having such a wonderful time on your trip, and sympathetic that you're feeling so far away from Gerry. Alas that emotional states are never simple! I'm sorry that you can't talk to Gerry more often; it must be particularly hard to feel so far away and to not be in a good position to pick up the phone and call; I totally understand about wanting to let him rest if he's able to sleep. Take care, and I'm sending hugs and some peace your way!
Lucky - I would totally love to knit with Miriam!!!
Buy a ready-made sweater? That's OK. I bet Julie Child ate out in a restaurant now and then too.
Lots of prayers for Gerry and your whole family Annie. Like the Yankee pitcher, my DH diagnosed in 1999 is still going strong. I'm praying for that for Gerry too.
The worrying aside, France sounds absolutely wonderful! And the food..... Wow.
I have a rule about never crying in the bath, but I don't drive so I hadn't thought about the car. I also have a rule about not crying in the dark. Apart from that, it's OK. I hope you get to talk to Gerry soon.
Oh Annie,
I wish I had wonderful insight and words to help out. I will over positive thoughts and prayers.
Is Miriam wearing your corset design? Very pretty
Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you, and Gerry and Hannah and Max. Sending healing thoughts to you all...
The world's-record-for-speed-knitting triggered this quote that I thought you'd enjoy:
"Catch on fire with enthusiasm and people will come for miles to watch you burn."-John Welsey
{hugs} to both sides of the atlantic.
Remember, Annie, that Gerry hates that he is worrying you, so just enjoy France and trust those wonderful Doctors and nurses. Not to mention modern medicine, and Gerry's determination to whoop this (insert four letter word of choice). You are having the trip of a lifetime. Hugs to all of the family.
Enjoy every moment of your 'off' time. You deserve it. When you return home you'll be surrounded by the people who love (and need) you the most and you'll be 'on' a lot more.
Laugh a lot, cry a little and take time to recharge.
This is your opportunity to gather your strength and arm yourself with experiences and stories to make Gerry smile and laugh out loud when you get back home. Really. It is hard to be away when you know he is going through dark times, but when you return you will bring the sunshine with you!
I've learned many things in knitting blog land but I never thought I would discover that others cry in their PT Cruisers too!
I also use my Cruiser time to tell myself that no matter what is happening or has happened that this is my life and along with the bad stuff there are many blessings as well.
Your ability to cite the lovely things in your life is an amazing and powerful asset!
Bon Soir!
Is Miriam wearing your Ribbed Corset? It looks like it and it is a lovely color but it doesn't look like the yarn called for in the pattern. Enjoy your time in (gleam) la Belle France.
You know, I never thought just how amazingly hard it had to be on David when I was in the hospital last fall. I mean, I knew it was hard on him, but I never quite knew.
Call. Even if he's tired. Call. When you're in the hospital, the time drags on like you wouldn't believe, the tv sucks, you don't want to read, and it's all just bleah. I know I about went nuts when I was in, and that was just for five days after surgery (that, and they put my IV in my hand, so I couldn't knit, gosh darn it!). I'd bet he needs a call right about now.
I'm praying for you guys and sending all the good thoughts and wishes I can think of.
Hi Annie,
Most days I lurk but I am very interested in the Feb 2008 knitout in St Paul. I live in CT and 4 of my grandkids live in st paul. Sound slike a grandkid trip and a knitting experience all in one doesn't it? I just can't find any info on it on line. Do you have a link? Thanks.
Hi Annie, glad you are enjoying your time in France and you are visiting at a lovely time of year. Big hugs to you and to Gerry and the kids, I am certain you will be looking back on this time and wondering how you coped. Funny that when we have to deal with things the human body and mind can do amazing things. Knit on!
Ummmm can't tell from the pic... but- is Miriam wearing a CORSET pullover ala Annie Modesitt?
I was going to say I recognized Miriam's garment--but mine aren't the only sharp eyes, Annie. That's a real tribute to you!
Thanks for letting us share all the various aspects of your life--you are demonstrating such grace under pressure.
Hi, Annie,
I just wanted you to know I am sending love and prayers for you and your Gerry. I'm a Buddhist, so I'm chanting for you. We met one time when I took your class at the Grove in San Diego and I was very impressed with your ability to teach and be funny at the same time.
Please cut yourself lots of slack, this is a huge load you are carrying. Whatever it takes to get you through, as you are carrying everyone else. Being "on" is optional.
Hugs,
Julie in San Diego
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