Imperfect Knitting for an Imperfect World
There are deadlines that I sweat over, stress over – make myself nauseus over – and then there are deadlines that are sweet. Finally reaching the end. I turned in sketches and swatches for two magazines this week, one deadline was the former, one was the latter – but I’m glad both are behind me!
One more deadline today, then two next week.
Update on the screw up sweater – I received the box yesterday (I still have to open it – I want to wait until I can really sit down with it this evening) and I’ll be repairing it and making some trim changes to the front opening. I’m glad I have a chance to make the changes, as much for my psyche as for the money or the exposure. Oh, and then there’s the little matter of trying to keep a reputation as one who will try to correct her mistakes.
I used to hear my mom talk about folks who, “Were LOVED by everyone…” or “Didn’t have an enemy in the world…” and – even as a small child – I’d think, “How in the world can ANYONE be loved by EVERYONE?” I still feel that way.
I know folks who are really great people – worthy of huge love and respect – but everyone is going to piss off someone sometime, that’s just the reality of life.
Once I’d realized and accepted this, I felt a lot freer – it made a great shift in my entire life focus. Instead of trying to be perfect – to make NO mistakes – to be loved by EVERYONE, I began to embrace the missteps I’d made as proof of my beautiful humanity. I can’t say that I love the pain that a mistake can cause, but I do love the process of working through them, learning from them, growing to be a broader person.
So – back to my imperfect knitting!