(Aug 23 – Sep 22)
You’ve made some important choices recently, but now you may see new options that weren’t available before. You could become increasingly frustrated if you believe that you made a bad decision. However, you have an opportunity today to make additional changes, even if that means temporarily complicating your life. Remember, your situation can change quickly again; don’t fall into the trap of thinking that you’re stuck with what you have when your attitude can actually create a positive impact.
I’m hoping the above is true – I need to work on my attitude right about now, and this is a good reminder that in many ways we create our own [mental] reality.
I’m blue today – I learned yesterday morning that I didn’t get a job which I felt I had a really good shot at. Apparently they prefer not to hire folks who end sentences in prepositions.
Seriously, though, they went with someone who has more recently been part of a corporate landscape – I’m all maverick-y. I am who I am.
So, as I told a friend during the whole process (and I was pretty mum about it), “I’ve done the best job I can do at presenting myself honestly and positively – I can do no more.”
I had to do a few ‘assignments’ for my potential employers so they could judge my work (hence the ‘password protected’ blog posts this week) but I guess my work just didn’t measure up to what they wanted.
It’s hard to be rejected. When you’re self employed as a designer, you spend a lot of time getting rejection notes. Even if you’re successful, there’s a lot of rejection.
It does get easier – but the initial smack is always hard.
This has happened a few times recently – this job rejection thing. Obviously I’m not alone – it’s a cold, cold world out there for job seekers.
So I held a pity party for myself yesterday and drowned my sorrows in a piece (O N E small piece) of poppy seed lemon cake at Caribou Coffee (it was delicious, by the way – NOTHING takes the place of wheat flour), and I’ve been suffering with a serious flare up ever since.
I’m an idiot. And I’d been SO careful during Thanksgiving – SO careful 99% of the time ALL the time!
Maybe I was acting out my largest fear, which is that I’d actually GET one of these jobs I’m applying for and then have a major flare up – unable to walk or move or do much more than sit stiffly in my bed (can’t even knit when I’m really bad…)
Or maybe my not-so-innocent fall into the fibro hole was how I thumb my nose at – who, exactly? Me? The imaginary person I’ve created in my mind who stands there shaking her head (it’s always a woman) at me, telling me that if I really tried I could get a “real” job?
So now I get back on the horse and continue working away. The irony of this is that I just finished 2 projects and I have 3 more waiting on my hook and needles, so I’m as busy as I can be right now…
“Real” job, indeed.
I’d dedicated a lot of time to the stuff I worked up for my interviews, so I didn’t get my two new classes finished by December (as was my goal!) but I’ll keep working on them and maybe I’ll have them up sooner rather than later.
I’m working on a millinery and a colorwork class, and also trying to figure how to offer a group of classes on DVD for folks who’d like to own the techniques. (of course I’ll keep you posted – don’t I always…?)
If you receive my newsletter you got the chicken hat pattern.
Yes, I know it’s absurd, and it mixes knit with crochet, and I’m sure there’s some religious objection to the whole man-as-chicken thing.
But it’s a pattern that makes me laugh, I worked it up just for fun (and if you’re in the UK and can get Laughing Hens Rooster Yarn then you know how nice the yarn is.)
Of course, this will work up nicely in just about any worsted weight yarn with a bit of elasticity – it’s a friggin’ hat! Use some red/brown hand painted to work up a nice Rhode Island Red! Just avoid eating chicken while wearing the hat.
So enjoy the chicken hat – maybe I’ll see a few out there?